Gianantonio Allegri’s Testimony

LET NOTHING DISTURB YOU, LET NOTHING FRIGHTEN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE PASSING, GOD NEVER CHANGES. (St. Teresa of Avila)

The Abduction and Liberation of Fr. Giampaolo Marta, Sister Gilberte Bussière, and Fr. Gianantonio Allegri

Gianantonio Allegri’s account (August 2014)

About two months have passed since our liberation.

I just wanted to put in writing the dramatic event that affected us, Fr. Giampaolo, Sr. Gilberte and I, the abduction carried out by the Nigerian fundamentalist Islamic sect, called Boko Haram.

The kidnapping occurred at about 23.00 (11.00 pm) on the 4th April 2014 in the Catholic mission of Tchère (in the diocese of Maroua-Mokolo, in the very North of Cameroon).

The event ended happily after fifty seven days, with our being freed and handed over to Cameroonian Security Forces, on the night between Saturday 31 May and Sunday 1 June, 2014.

Two months have passed since our liberation, two months in which I have been able to give an account of those 57 days on various occasions, frequently together with Giampaolo, deciphering, rather than the details of what happened, the sense that we have managed to discover it to be “a treasure hidden in a field”.

So it is time to write, both to get my often fragmented thoughts as I give an account into order, and also so that this treasure in the field may be shared with those who, from near or far, shared in our suffering through friendship, affection or prayer.

I especially wish to recall here the special brotherly closeness of Don Maurizio and Don Leopoldo (both of them also Fidei Donum priests from Vicenza to Maroua, in the Loulou Mission) who shared our story from the first moment, accompanying us in friendship and making of themselves a point of reference for friends and our communities.

From now on I will speak in the plural, because I am sure that what I write now is not simply the fruit of my thoughts and my heart, but an account that comes from the three of us, already while we were being held as prisoners. Of course some touches are my own, coloured by reference points in my own vocational story and my spiritual journey.

A little hell

From a physical and psychological viewpoint, the kidnapping, the time of imprisonment and the circumstances of our being freed (yes, those too!!), can be defined as a little hell, an experience that we would never wish to live through again and which we would not wish on anyone.

Being taken at gunpoint; feeling helpless, always at the hands of hostile strangers; living in a contested war zone with the real danger of suffering violence; living in poor physical conditions: in the humid heat of the savannah at the start of the rainy season, with zero hygiene conditions, with shortages of water and food, with the irksome presence of insects and other animals, and sleeping on the ground.

This was not only a lived experience of radical poverty, but also an experience of being subjected to violence, deprived of liberty and friendship and being forced to remain at gunpoint the whole time. Even if we must say we were not ill-treated, not tied or beaten.

A little hell under two large trees in the forest of the Nigerian savannah.

What helped us

Moments of discomfort were certainly not lacking, but mutual support, our speaking to one another and sharing our thoughts, led us to look on what was happening with greater serenity. In certain moments fear seemed to have the upper hand, but then recalling the words of Jesus in many gospel texts that recounted similar experiences (e.g. the calming of the storm) helped us to make the Gospel real…the sunshine after the storm, the dawn after the night.

Then was the time to check how much the faith believed and proclaimed (as apostles and missionaries) really had the capacity to light up our steps.

We gave time each day to prayer, to fraternal sharing and to meditation on the Gospel. Then in silence, personal prayer sealed what we had shared together.

The communion of saints

Our faith, nourished by the communion of prayer and affection of so many, many people and communities sustained us, giving us serenity and peace.

Only after our liberation did we realise that what we shared among the three of us in prison has been the “communion of Saints”, not just believed, but lived as a shining chain of communion and prayer with the Church reaching “to the ends of the Earth”. The Communion of Saints has been truly extraordinary and has allowed that the grace of God sustain and ultimately save us. For sure, we thought that there were people and communities who were praying for us, just as we never stopped praying for all those dear to us and for our communities, because we imagined the great suffering of not knowing how we were. But we could never have imagined the mobilisation of graces deployed for the three of us.

So the Word of Jesus always kept us never abandoned and transformed the drama of the abduction into “a treasure hidden in a field”.

Signs of light

From the first moment we experienced signs of light that most might judge that it was chance, rather than the loving presence of the Lord, that brought about certain circumstances favourable to saving our lives. Here are some examples: how did it happen that on the night of the kidnapping our bare feet, were not scratched or pierced by some millet stalk or stone or thorn, while traversing in the dark the route from the Mission to the paved road where a car was waiting to take us away? We do not know. Luck? Chance? (Thank you, Lord)

Upon arrival in the morning, after eleven hours of travel, at the prison camp in Nigeria, we were given some things that the kidnappers had robbed from our rooms: a small bag with my spare glasses (thank you, Lord!), pen and paper, later used by sister Gilberte to write a diary (thanks, Lord!); and finally – get it! – my bag with all the things to celebrate the Eucharist. Stunned and incredulous we thought that surely they must not have known what they were, probably taking them to be things to eat or some medicines. Thus we made use of them and for four days, there on the mat on the ground, we celebrated the Eucharist, while our guards, just 5-6 metres away were exerting themselves obsessively chanting the Koran out loud.

Thank you Lord for coming with us to the forest and for breaking the Bread of your presence. Thank you Lord for “laying your mat among us”, for accompanying us in what was a long Lent, a desert of temptations and a special advent in confident waiting for liberation.

However, after four days, following complaint by a young guard who had sensed that we were praying, the bag was taken away from us, with the promise that it would be given back to us at the moment of our liberation. This in fact did not happen for unforseen circumstances; so the chalice, paten, hosts and wine have remained there as a sign… like the “empty tomb”.

The Eucharistic celebration was taken away from us, but in fact what was not taken from us was the Eucharistic bread of the Word of Jesus, which we shared, meditated, and contemplated each day, selecting Gospel passages, recounted from memory; the Eucharistic bread made of other moments of common prayer which we took turns to lead: the Rosary, morning and evening prayer; the Eucharistic bread made of our lived fraternity in spiritual conversation, telling our life-stories (we had the time!), along with keeping each other going in moments of greatest discomfort and in the service of caring for one another.

A “different” missionary presence

With prayer on our lips and the Gospel in our hearts we told ourselves that that experience, though unwanted, was turning into a great call to live, although in the extreme, a missionary presence, a missionary Church presence, (“where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them”) where no missionary would have come to on his own initiative. It was the last place that a missionary would have chosen, and we were there, “moved by the Spirit”. We do not know how Jesus might have met the hearts of our captors, certainly, however, he met them with our fraternal presence, our serenity and our prayer for them.

These were, in this manner, an experience and an advertisement for a poor Church, stripped of all means, even of the “spoken word” (they couldn’t understand us), leave space, the whole space to the Spirit who blows where he wills, when he wills, on whom he wills, by means of the presence of a powerless Church.

This awareness questioned us and among ourselves there was much discussion thinking of the missionary life in the parish of Tchere. What is the Lord saying to us? Why did so well established a Mission (this year we would have celebrated 20 years since its foundation) now unexpectedly find itself having to rethink things? While continuing to support it with a certain amount of aid, we cannot hide from ourselves the fact that it will no longer be as before. Should we nevertheless not then rethink our missionary work? Our presence, priorities, style and means? Perhaps the New Evangelization affects not only the countries of ancient Christian tradition, but also the missionary Churches on the different continents.

A path of conversion

The discovery of this treasure hidden in a field led us also to review our personal lives in terms of conversion.

What is the Lord calling us to be and do after making us live this long Lent and this advent of liberation?

A powerful word that often emerged in our conversation was: stripping.

Indeed, there we experienced what ‘stripping’ means in all senses: we were impoverished, helpless, and fragile, at the mercy of men and of nature. And in those conditions we came into contact with the fatherhood of God through our own fraternity and the inspiration of the heart.

Thus an awareness took root in us that the poverty of spirit of the Beatitudes can only come through a certain poverty of means, through a real stripping of securities, through helplessness. Only in this way can there also be a real and respectful sharing with the poor.

In this context, for me personally, the Prayer of Abandonment of Charles de Foucauld became more concrete and intelligible and choosing the ‘last place’ a path to follow with confidence.

Another strong word was: fraternity-communion

We lived understanding that the Lord had given us the gift of “being together” to face the storm. We learned that what unites is stronger than that which divides; that one’s strength is the strength of all and that one’s weakness is the opportunity to draw on the power of God and the light of the Resurrection.

The mercy of God comes through the mercy of a brother.

The prayers of various Christian communities for us prisoners brought out forcefully the image of the body whose strongest members bend to support the weakest members.

Another strong word: peace.

A peace to search for, to ask for in prayer. Peace for Nigeria, for Cameroon, peace for the churches involved, peace for the various religious communities, Christians and Moslems. Prayer to open doors to the Spirit of God who by wisdom and grace can touch souls and find paths of reconciliation, of understanding and of freedom.

A peace worth fighting for, rejecting all violence as a way of finding justice.

Violence, while searching for one’s rights, tramples the rights of another. Arms, the manufacture and trading of arms, are not in the heart or plan of God.

Holy Week 2014 will remain unforgettable.

Participation in the death and resurrection of Jesus has been fully existential this year: on the night of our liberation at a certain point we had serious and palpable reasons to believe that the negotiations and accords had turned sour and that we would therefore have to return to “the tomb” in the forest, the savannah. We intensified our prayer, our abandonment, and our humility in pleading for the impossible. “All is possible for one who believes…” (Mk.9,23), Lord if then all is possible…all is possible…free us!

At the moment of death, when all seems to be truly finished (“…He is already four days in the tomb” Jn.11, 39), it is at that moment that the light of the Resurrection becomes reality.

On Saturday 31 May, the feast of the Visitation of our Lady, we left the prison camp for what was to be the previously announced freedom and that night we feared our not achieving it, but through the intercession of Mary the mother of Jesus and our mother, we were finally freed … on the feast of the Ascension, ”he took captives with him” (Eph. 4, 8), to our joy and the joy of those who love us.

For the glory of God.

“We fly to your protection, Holy Mother of God”.

(Translation to English by Liam -thank you!-)

LETTER FOR ADVENT 2014

LETTER FOR ADVENT 2014

BROTHER RESPONSABLE

Dear Brothers,

adviento2014-1We are close to Advent and the feast of the anniversary of the death of Brother Charles: Universal Brother, this human gift of God for the Church and the world of the least, he who by his charism helps us discover God the Father and the goodness of people, worker and contemplative…we could give him a rosary of titles, all very different from the one he had socially as Viscount de Foucauld. The searcher, the man of peace, the poor man…When he encounters Jesus he is transformed in his humanity into a great friend of Jesus’, feeling loved and accompanied. To love and accompany people: this is one of our missions. We feel loved and accompanied: the gratuity with which our brothers and sisters show us the face of Jesus. Only the least of people can understand this. We recall this phrase of brother Charles: “Remember that you are small”.

adviento2014-2There are now two years until the centenary of his passing to the Father having abandoned himself to Him, trusting in His will, thankful, commending his life into His hands, pure love, with the confidence of a son who knows that his father loves him, because he begot him. May Charles de FOUCAULD this 1st December, 2014, continue to inspire us to be universal brothers ourselves too, celebrating in our fraternities, or parish communities the ‘madness’ of one who sought to imitate the ‘madness’ of Jesus. .

adviento2014-3Since Easter I had the chance to visit the fraternities of Morocco, Algeria and Tunisia in Rabat, learning from these brothers their ability to live in a culture so different from western culture as witnesses to Jesus, living with Islam and serving small groups of Christians. These brothers are a blessing for the Fraternity. Thanks to Marc BOUCROT, who received me as a true brother and taught me a few words of Arabic.

adviento2014-5In August I shared the Summer retreat with the Spanish Fraternity, where we deepened our identity as diocesan priests called by Jesus to serve, celebrate and give help. We did all this within the context of an encounter of brothers who love the Fraternity and who commit themselves to it. The introductions to each daily theme were given by a member of the Malaga Fraternity, Javier GUERRERO. At the same time the European Assembly took place in Verona, Italy, whose final letter of declaration you will have received. It was a good time and a chance to share the life of the European Fraternities and the challenges of an ageing Church which is called to live alongside a materialist and pragmatic society and, at the same time, amid a growing proportion of different cultures. To be a Church not from structures of power, but rather to grant to each human being what Jesus would give them: to listen, accompany, serve, without all this presupposing a belonging to the Christian community. Our thanks to John McEVOY, Secondo MARTIN and the Italian brothers.

European Assembly, Verona, Italy

European Assembly, Verona, Italy

adviento2014-7Our international team meeting in Amborovy, Madagascar, in September strengthened us as a multi-lingual, ethnic and cultural fraternity; it made us learn from each other and feel that we need each other, and that the coordination of the continental fraternities is the task of all of us. The Letter from Amborovy gives a resumé of our work and experience as a fratenity. In March Jean François and I met in my house to continue studying and try to offer responses on different themes of the fraternity that cannot be left over to next year. Whatever question or matter gives you concern, or initiative that seems interesting to you for the organization and co-ordination of the Fraternity, pass it on to us, because we all need each other. Thanks.

adviento2014-8In October I shared with the Maltese Fraternity in their annual retreat and in the life and experience of some brothers who are very faithful to the Gospel and to the spirit of the Fraternity. This fidelity to Jesus and to the simple believing people which is also an experience of God, is pure biblical wisdom in men of faith with many years of pastoral work, who have given all for Jesus. At the end of the Day in the Desert apart from some rocks and fossills, I carried with me the silence garnered from the free gift to Jesus in the ordinary of each day from each person. Joseph FSADNI taught me a few words of Maltese and how to feel totally at home in Malta. Thanks.

This direct and fraternal contact with the brothers is helping me greatly to learn of their lives and of their concerns. It always brings me to Matt. 25,31-40: to go deeper in my dealings and relations with others, to listen rather than be listened to; to serve, rather than to preside at their celebrations; to announce good news, not to burden anyone with anxiety and pessimism; to encounter Jesus himself in the humblest of brothers. This Advent I adviento2014-9wish that my experience not be a mere illusion. I would like that the people experience Jesus who comes to nourish those who hunger for happiness, to give to drink to those who thirst for joy, to receive the stranger who begs to join us, to clothe the one who is stripped naked by rights denied by wars, by quick and easy dismissal or eviction, to be with the one who is sick or elderly and who cannot enjoy the life that we enjoy, to visit the one who is in prison or alone, in personal isolation or alcoholic dependence, addicted to drugs or gambling, to stand up for women who are illtreated and deprived of rights in so many societies. I believe that Advent, apart from lighting a candle each Sunday, feeling that we are good children of God, of the one Father, is to be good brothers. We can ask ourselves: How long is it since I visited that person? When was the last time I phoned that brother? How concerned am I about the health and welbeing of others? The people of our parishes, when we are not there any longer, will not recall what we preached or said: their experience of Jesus will be how we treated our neighbour, and whether we are poor and whether we are with them in difficult and sad times, just as we are at their joys and feasts, whether we give our time and energy without demanding anything in return. Pope Francis, with other words, does not tire of speaking this way.

In Easter week, next April, in Castelfranco, Italy, in the house of the Disciples of the Gospel, which is part of the Carlos de FOUCAULD family, we will have a meeting of responsibles of the different fraternities. The questionnaire that I have sent out which is also on the site www.iesuscaritas.org you can, if you wish, tackle personally or in your fraternities. . I ask you to send your replies before the end of this year. Many thanks.

May the love of God flood into our hearts and continue to give peace and the serenity of hope to brothers of the Fraternity who live in complicated situations in their countries because of war that affects them and their families. Like Mary, may we have hope: she gave us the Saviour..

adviento2014-aurelioA big embrace with joy,

Aurelio SANZ BAEZA, brother responsable
Perín, Cartagena, Murcia, Spain, 25th November 2014

 

PDF: ENG – Letter for Advent 2014 – brother responsable

Aurelio ittra lill – Fratellanza ta ‘Malta, Ottubru 2014 (Maltese)

Qalb aħwa,

xorta miegħi l-kulur u dawl ta ‘ Malta fl-ritorn lejn ix-xogħol u normali ta ‘kuljum Nazareth aħħar ġimgħa universali komuni tagħna. Li Nazareth aħna tgħallimna mill-Evanġelju u mill-messaġġ universali ta ‘Brother Charles: aħna jidentifikaw ruħhom mal-ħidma għar-Renju fejn ninsabu, bl-età għandna, mal-forzi li għandhom, fl-affarijiet żgħar u insinifikanti u jirrispondu għal sejħiet kuljum nirċievu minn Alla u l-poplu.

malta-oct-2014-1Grazzi talli lili u smajt, għal teħid me post fostkom. Speċjali grazzi għall Joseph FSADNI għal xogħol iebes tagħhom fil-koordinazzjoni kollu biex issir din repli u dan il-ġbir ta ‘fratellanza vera, biex jieħdu me u jġibu me up u ‘l isfel u jinkwetaw dwar kull brother.

malta-oct-2014-2Grazzi li Charlò CAMILLERI, ocarm., ċċettjaw għall tagħtina filgħodu u filgħaxija sempliċiment jistudjaw esperjenza tagħhom ta ‘l-ispiritwalità ta’ Charles de FOUCAULD u Teresa ta ‘Lisieux, fl-ispirtu missjunarju li jidentifika kemm bil-messaġġ universali.

Qatt m’hu tard wisq biex tibda; aħna qatt ser jaħlux ħin tiegħek jekk aħna let Alla jkun żmien malta-oct-2014-3tagħna:fil-żgħar, fil-ħidma umli, fis servizz lill-persuni li għandhom bżonn l-appoġġ tagħna, smigħ tagħna u l-qawwa tagħna biex jgħinu jiktbu ħajjithom bil-ferħ u tama. Ħin hija rigal minn Alla li aħna jamministraw. Agħti dak iż-żmien lill-oħrajn huwa investiment tajjeb. L-esperjenza fraternità għandek huwa approvazzjoni ta ‘dak iż-żmien minfuqa tajjeb. Dan huwa valur li ma tfittex li ma jipprovdix kurrikulu jew il-pożizzjoni soċjali u ekkleżjali rilevanti. Kultant naħsbu li fil-futur ma nafux kif se jkun; preżenti tagħna huwa dak li jgħodd, kemm għalina u għal Alla. X’inhu l-futur ta ‘fraternità tagħna, jekk aħna anzjani? Fil-idejn ta ‘Alla huwa.

malta-oct-2014-4I rċeviet dwar iż-żjara tiegħi għall-seminarju sinjal ewlieni ta ‘tama. Jimmy huwa ħabib tal-fraternità huwa rettur tajba. Xhieda tiegħu fost seminaristi u x-xogħol tiegħu fosthom jistħoqqilha attenzjoni sħiħa tiegħi. Tajba biex jimmaturaw l-idea qamet li torganizza ġimgħa ta ‘Nazaret mal-seminaristi li huma interessati fil-kariżma tal Charles de FOUCAULD, li jixtiequ jkunu jafu aktar dwar il-ispiritwalità li jgħaqqadna u l-mod mill-Evanġelju bħala familji jippruvaw malta-oct-2014-5FOUCAULD jgħixu. Ħafna seminaristi waslet għall-seminar mmarkata minn linja pastorali u spiritwali konkreta; huwa la miksur u lanqas joħolqu tikketti ġodda. Huwa faqar tagħna tipprovdi qassis djoċesan teħtieġ ispiritwalità li jidentifika mal-missjoni ta ‘Ġesù. U stil ta ‘ħajja li jagħmel inti tkun ħbieb ma’ sħabhom u tiftaħ qalbek fir-reviżjoni ħajja. A ispiritwalità deżert u l-ispiritwalita li jagħmel qima żmien ta ‘grazzja u l-ħbiberija ma’ Ġesù. A ispiritwalità li tgħin biex f’tim, biex jagħmlu l-kompiti pastorali konġunti, involviment mad-dinja u l-ħajja ta ‘l-, bħala fqar, klassi mhux bħala dropouts foqra.

Dawn u sfidi oħra huma dawk nistgħu jipperċepixxu minn dak li aħna u nagħmlu, mill-istorja personali tagħna u jitlob mill-qalb tal-fraternità.

malta-oct-2014-6Grazzi kollha talli hekk.

Il jħaddnu ta brother ftit tiegħek

Aurelio, responsabbli brother

Perín, Cartagena, Murcia, Spanja, 15 ottubru 2014,

Teresa ta ‘Ġesù, mate ruħ Ġesù

PDF: Aurelio ittra lill-fratellanza ta’Malta, ottubru 2014, maltese

Letter of Aurelio to the Fraternity of Malta, October 2014

Dear brothers,

still he accompanies the color and the light of Malta in the return on the work and the normality of every day on our universal Nazareth shared last week. This Nazareth that we learned from the Gospel and from the universal message of the brother Charles: he identifies us with the work for the Kingdom there where we are, with the age that we have, with the forces which we have, in the small and insignificant things and in the response to the calls that every day we receive of God and of the persons.

malta-oct-2014-1Thousand graces for having taken refuge and listened, for doing a site to me between you.Thank you specially to Joseph FSADNI for his great effort in the coordination of everything, for to make possible this retirement and this meeting of real brotherhood, for removing and to bring me above and below and for worrying for every brother.

malta-oct-2014-2Thanks to Charlò CAMILLERI, ocarm., for giving itself in the morning and evening of a simple way his experience of study of the spirituality of Charles de FOUCAULD and of Teresa de Lisieux, in this missionary spirit that identifies both with a universal message.

It is never late to begin; we are never going to lose the time if we allow that God should be our time: in the small thing, in the humble work, in the service to the people who needs malta-oct-2014-3from our support, our scout and our hand to help to write his lives, with happiness and hope. The time is a God’s gift that we administer. Have time to the others is a good investment. The experience of fraternity that you have is an endorsement of this well used time. It is a value that does not shine, that does not provide curriculum or social position and eclesial relevant. We think sometimes about a future that we do not even know how it is going to be; our present is what counts, so much for us as for God. Which is the future of our fraternity, if already we are old? In the God’s hands it is.

malta-oct-2014-4I received in my visit to the seminar an important sample of hope. Jimmy is a friend of the fraternity, is a good rector. His testimony between the seminarians and his work between them deserves all my attention. It is good to mature the idea arisen of organizing a Week of Nazareth with the seminarians who are interested for Charles de FOUCAULD charisma, which they want to know more closely the spirituality than us joins and the way from the Gospel like FOUCAULD’s families we try to live. Many seminarians come to the seminar marked by malta-oct-2014-5a pastoral and spiritual concrete line; It is a question not neither of break labels nor to create new others. It is a question of offering from our poverty that a diocesan priests needs from a spirituality that he identifies him with Jesus’ mission. And it forms a of life that him makes be a friend of companions and to open his heart in the review of life. A spirituality of the desert and a spirituality that does of the adoration a moment of grace and of friendship with Jesus. A spirituality that helps to the teamwork, to realizing jointly the pastoral tasks, which he compromises with the world and the life of the poorest, as poor, not as deserters of social class.

These and other challenges are those that we can perceive from what we are and do, from our personal history and from the calls in the heart of the fraternity.

malta-oct-2014-6Thanks to all for being like that.

A hug of your little brother

Aurelio, responsible brother

Perín, Cartagena, Murcia, Spain, 15 october 2014,

Teresa of Jesus, best friend of Jesus

(Sorry my Spanglish)

PDF: Letter of Aurelio to the fraternity of Malta, october 2014, english